#vanni rambles!

[scrunchiesandsquips]

cbs ghosts headcanon:

sam puts on just dance on the tv for them- and it reveals that most of the ghosts are AMAZING dancers

this however does not apply to issac.

headcanon over

[send-me-a-puffalope]

Thoughts on Vanny Estradiol?

[reluctanttrabbit]

something that still drives me insane since ruins anniversary is coming up

[king-candybug-backup]

Hello! You may not remember me, but I’m the anon with NPD from a while ago that talked about really appreciating how you wrote KCB’s processing of the twins’ deaths. I’m back again because, well, I have a LOT to say about the new chapter…

I don’t think I’ve ever ugly-cried that hard reading a fic in my life. I actually had to take a break halfway through Vanny and KCB’s fight because I was crying so much that I couldn’t read, lol. You have no idea how much it means to me, not only that one of my favorite writers sees Turbo in the same light that I do, but also being able to read a piece of fanfiction that actually understands me. I’ve been an avid fic reader for a few years now, and I’ve never had this experience with a fanfiction before. I’ve not read a lot of fics that address NPD directly in the first place (I think I’ve come across maybe two before this one? I know there’s bound to be more, but that’s all I’ve found in the particular fandoms I’ve been in.) and even then, it was framed in a more “NPD = Evil Person” kind of light, which was a huge bummer for me. And then, for those fics that don’t address it directly but are about characters that have heavily implied NPD, the authors either completely strip away the qualities that come with having NPD, or frame it as something that can be “fixed” through “the power of redemption” or something. 🙄 It’s so frustrating. So, I’m beyond happy at how you managed to keep Turbo feeling like himself while also addressing the painful aspect of NPD that so many people don’t care enough about to acknowledge. Honestly, this topic was handled so well and respectfully that I was quite surprised to read how nervous you were about it in the chapter notes. Please rest assured that you’ve done an amazing job, and I think the fact that you were this worried about it in the first place just goes to show how much respect and care you put into addressing NPD at all. :-)

The relationship with Vanellope is also just… wow. AMAZINGLY done! I love how, even though they don’t really understand each other, Vanellope has been picking up on things that bother him and working towards making adjustments to make everything more comfortable to work through. Her putting a stop to the “pet” comments is probably the most obvious example, but the part of their developing friendship that I like the most is the way their teasing of each other has developed. One of my favorite parts about the fic as a whole has been the way Vanellope continuously reassures him that her teasing isn’t actually malicious. How, in the beginning, she could see the way that he could never tell if she was trying to insult him or not, and making sure to clarify that it’s all in good fun every step of the way. I love how it was carefully sprinkled throughout a bunch of the chapters, and how it showed King Candy slowly coming around to it. He can still be pretty mean with some of his remarks at times, sure, but it really feels like he’s grown a lot more comfortable and casual in the playful teasing aspect of things, and that growth is so satisfying to see! 

I also am so in love with how Vanellope, as good as her intentions may be, can easily fall into the trap of assuming we can just “choose” not to feel like this. It’s like the “Have you tried NOT being depressed?” meme, but instead it’s “Have you tried NOT having NPD?” Lol. I’ve definitely had moments of major frustration in how even other neurodivergent people sometimes act like my disorder is something I could just “turn off”, even though they of all people should know that’s not how it works. (On the topics of choice, though, I also really appreciate that she acknowledges the terrible things he did can’t be excused by the way his brain works, and he has to take accountability for the things he chose to do. That whole scene struck the perfect balance of her being sympathetic to the feelings he can’t control, but also mindful enough to know there was a level of personal choice involved that can’t be blamed on the NPD.)

Lastly, one more thing I’d like to say is how much I adore your commentary on Felix’s interpretation of the Roadblasters event. That’s something that’s always bothered me as well, and the “unreliable narrator” comment is something I think fits perfectly to the situation. How in the absolute hell am I supposed to take Felix’s word for it, all things considered? The way Vanellope describes the inconsistencies is pretty much on point. It can’t have been something as basic as “simple jealousy”. Turbo kamikaze’d another cabinet. That is not a fucking normal reaction. There had to have been far more to Turbo’s mental state than what we were told, and it frustrates me to my core how it was all completely swept over. Apologies for the massive rant, I’m just so thrilled that this fic exists and I desperately want you to know how much it means to me! I see a lot of my own struggles in the way you write KCB, and I’m tearing up again just thinking about it. It has always been one of my top favorites from the WIR fandom since chapter 3, but after this chapter, Kill Switch has just skyrocketed to becoming my top favorite fanfiction of all time, and it’s not even close. In a world that can be so uncaring towards people like me, you made me feel seen and understood, and I can’t thank you enough for that. 💕

I’M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY, BUT IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL ANY BETTER, THIS ASK JUST MADE ME CRY TOO, SO LET’S CALL IT EVEN 😭😭😭😭💖💖💖💖💖💖

ABSOLUTELY NO WORRIES ABOUT THE LENGTHY ASK, LIKE SERIOUSLY TRUST ME I LOVE LONG ASKS A LOT, ALSO BE WARNED I AM GOING TO DO A LOT OF RAMBLING IN RESPONSE BECAUSE I HAVE SOOOOOOO MANY THOUGHTS ON THIS YOU HAVE NO IDEA SFGJDHVJB (ALSO OMFG SERIOUSLY THANK YOU SO MUCH, IT MAKES ME BEYOND HAPPY THAT SOME SILLY IMPULSE FIC OF MINE COULD MEAN THAT MUCH TO SOMEBODY 😭 LIKE I’M ABOUT TO EXPLODE OVER HERE, AAAUUUGGGHH) ALSO YOUR ASK MADE ME DRAW A DUMB THING LMFAO:

Vanellope’s progression of how she sees KCB in this fic be like-

Bro is on the fast-track to becoming a statistic at this point 😭

That being said bro has hit MULTIPLE rock-bottoms and yet keeps cockroaching his way back up the food chain SO LIKE WHO REALLY KNOWS LMAOO

I’ve already talked a few peoples’ ears off about aspects of this (Y’ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE LMAO), but I AM ABOUT TO DO IT AGAIN BECAUSE OH MY GODDDD. SO MANY THINGS TO SAY. (Also some of my rambling here is just gonna be elaborating on crud I already mentioned in chapter notes BUT WHATEVER, I'MA RAMBLE ANYWAY-)

Yeahhh, tbh, my biggest concern was about, like, writing about it as somebody who doesn’t actually have it myself, but also I was nervous about the whole stereotypical “give the villain NPD” thing because it’s, like, always villains that are getting headcanoned with it, lol? And I know that in and of itself can be iffy. 😭 I just wanted to be super duper clear that I wasn’t trying to frame it as, like what you said, a whole “NPD = Evil Person” kind of thing, like I was struggling to know if my intentions were coming off right sgfdhcgvhbj BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT IS COMING OFF WELL, SO AAAAAAAAA I’M SO RELIEVED LOL. Like, I cannot believe that we are in the year 2025 and people STILL think it’s okay to de-humanize an entire group of people for disorders they have zero choice in having. Holy shit, people. (Hell, even just, like, a week ago I saw a post from someone with diagnosed NPD talking about how they were trying to have a healthy relationship with their sister and keep her needs in mind regarding a wedding situation and stuff, and a bunch of the comments were like “YOU CAN’T ACTUALLY HAVE NPD BECAUSE PEOPLE WITH NPD DON’T CARE AT ALL ABOUT THIS KIND OF STUFF, SO YOU MUST NOT ACTUALLY HAVE NPD” and it made me want to bang my head against a f’ckin’ wall lmfao, NPD FOLKS ARE NOT SHALLOW STEREOTYPE CARDBOARD CUT-OUTS, PEOPLE. THEY ARE COMPLEX HUMAN BEINGS JUST LIKE ANYBODY ELSE. HOLY SHIT, LOL.)

THANK YOU SO MUCH ON THE VANELLOPE THING BTW, THAT WAS ONE OF THE SCENES I WAS MOST WORRIED ABOUT BECAUSE IMO IT FELT REALLY NOT-SUBTLE AND AWKWARDLY WRITTEN LMAO, BUT I FELT IT WAS MORE IMPORTANT TO CLARIFY THE DISTINCTION BETWEEN CHOICE AND LIKE, BRAIN CHEMISTRY I GUESS, SO IT WOULDN’T SOUND LIKE I WAS DOING SOMETHING LIKE, “You’re terrible BECAUSE you have NPD” THAT’S NOT THE MESSAGING I WANTED TO GET ACROSS SO I GOT KINDA ON-THE-NOSE ABOUT IT IN THAT PART HGFDCFGJVHBJ– All that being said, I am VERY happy that the overdirect nature of that scene didn’t ruin it HFDGFGJKGVFJH Vanellope is a SWEETHEART but I imagine she would certainly not be immune to making the assumption that people with Cluster B disorders can just “stop it but choose not to” ghhjffchgvjbk LIKE I DON’T THINK BRO IS ALL TOO THRILLED ABOUT HAVING HIS SELF-WORTH BE TOTALLY RELIANT ON COMPLETELY EXTERNAL FACTORS EITHER, VANNY (That being said, her ignorance is more easily excused due to her being literally 9, and even then, she’s still more compassionate and understanding than like 90% of the arcade LMAO *sobs*) 

AND FELIX, GOD, FELIX. Felix is a good dude, but we know from the movie that he’s extremely oblivious to other people’s suffering. While it was never clarified in canon exactly HOW well he knew Turbo before the Roadblasters incident, I’m of the opinion that it wouldn’t really have changed how he narrated the situation whether they had been close or not? Like, hell, he knew Ralph for 30 years, literally SAW RALPH GO TURBO, and STILL was all shocked Pikachu face when Ralph was like “Hey, people treated me like a criminal for my entire life” LIKE BRO??? FELIX, YOU WERE LITERALLY THERE, MY DUDE, WHY ARE YOU SURPRISED???????

Anyways, slight side tangent aside, that’s why I think that, no matter which way you spin Felix and Turbo’s past relationship, Felix was always going to end up being a bit of an unreliable narrator. He had NO WAY of knowing what was really going through Turbo’s head that pushed him to invade Roadblasters, and while his assessment of the situation was sort of correct in a VERY surface-level kind of way, to just portray it as “Lol Turbo got jealous and tried to take over the new game” is both EXTREMELY oversimplifying the situation and also making a lot of assumptions that he’d have no way to truly confirm without asking Turbo directly. Given everything we know about how devastating an unplugging is for game citizens, it’s pretty easy to guess that that’s one of the big motivators behind Turbo's actions, like, the possibility of his game being replaced by the shiny new one, leaving TurboTime at a pretty big risk of unplugging, not having the love of the players anymore... Felix framed it more like Turbo had one bad Tuesday and then went psycho rather than, like, the HUGE emotional/mental blow that it all would’ve been to Turbo. Like, Turbo 100% HAD TO HAVE KNOWN he was straight-up HEAVILY risking his life by pulling that stunt, like, even if he didn’t necessarily plan on Roadblasters getting unplugged, he still crashed into another car in a game that was not his own, and every character knows you DO NOT regenerate outside of your own game, like, BRO WASN’T JUST OUT FOR BLOOD, HE WAS FULL-ON THROWING HIS LIFE AWAY AT THAT POINT, HE WAS DESPAIRING HARD, I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL. IF THEY’RE GOING TO GIVE HIM CONCERNING TRAITS AND NOT ELABORATE ON IT THEN THEY’RE GOING TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH ME GETTING INTO THE NITTY GRITTIES OF THE DEPRESSING PARTS OF NPD AND INTERPRETING HIS ACTIONS FROM THAT LENS. NOBODY CAN STOP ME GHFSGDCJFHV  (Obviously NOT saying Turbo was in the right AT ALL, he was 100% OBVIOUSLY in the wrong and straight-up got people killed with no remorse lmao, I just think people also kind of completely stopped thinking of Turbo as a person after that and instead this “thing”, COMPLETELY “other”ing him from everybody else. While Turbo’s actions were beyond extreme, it’s also not totally impossible to see where his thought process was at the time, especially considering the overall culture of the arcade. (I do think Felix’s use of the term “take over” in the script was more meant as a hint or foreshadowing to his becoming of King Candy, but like, yeah, point is, we learn about all of that through Felix’s interpretation of events, not Turbo’s, and we all know how unreliable Felix can be at reading people who are in unfortunate circumstances FGHDGFGJVFGH (Not bashing Felix at all though, that’s honestly the biggest thing I like about him as a character, he’s clearly very well-intentioned and wants everybody to get along, but they allow him to be flawed in the way of being a little ignorant of other people’s feelings (at first, anyway) and I LOVE THAT A LOT FROM A WRITING STANDPOINT, IT WORKS SUPER WELL)

As a side thing, I think it’s important to note that there is ABSOLUTELY no way I’m the first person to write him from this kind of perspective, I’ve seen good analysis posts about him having NPD too, so I’m sure there’s gotta be more fan works that approach him from this angle, I just haven’t personally seen a lot of what’s out there since I’m so late to the fandom, rip. 😭 (That’s not to say I don’t appreciate the compliments because I VERY MUCH DO, YOUR ASK HAS MADE MY ENTIRE MONTH TBH, I just also don’t wanna come across like, presenting my take on it as wholly unique or anything like that, because I know for sure it is not lmao) ALSO YOU SHOULD CHECK OUT @orbofrommyshows AND @badbugbotblood's FICS BECAUSE THEY VIEW TURBO PSYCHOLOGICALLY IN A LOT OF THE SAME WAYS THAT I DO SO YOU'LL PROBABLY LIKE THOSE ONES GHFDCFVHJN

Also I need to give a huge huge HUUUGE thanks to @saltnpepperbunny helping me better understand things about stuff like the “narc high” and the “narc crash” and some other things, I had been initially struggling a lot with these kinds of scenes in regards to writing the emotions of King Candy because of how hard it is to find actually good sources that elaborate on NPD behaviours in meaningful ways, so they were a MASSIVE help by phrasing things in a way that clicked a lot easier for my brain to understand, it really really helped me with stuff like this chapter in particular, better phrasing some of the future scenes yet to come, as well as going back to rephrase some of the older scenes that I wasn’t super happy with (still have a lot that are a bit on the "meh" side, but oh well, they can’t all be winners lol), so like, HUGE MASSIVE PROPS TO THEM! They also have their own fanfic about a character with NPD called Beacon, it’s for a different fandom but like, THEY’RE SUCH A GOOD WRITER I FEEL LIKE IT DOESN’T EVEN MATTER IF YOU’RE IN THAT FANDOM OR NOT, like trust me, this author is BASED AF and if you’re wanting to find another story that won’t demonize NPD, I can ASSURE you that this one is going to knock your socks off, definitely worth checking out!!! :D (I know I’m talking it up a lot when there’s only like one chapter out, but the reason I’m so confident is because they tackle A LOT of stigmatized disorders in their works overall (hence why I reached out to them in the first place in regards to NPD) and they always do a SPECTACULAR job, so like, yeah, very skilled writer!!! Highly HIGHLY recommend!!!!!!) If you like my writing you will DEFINITELY like SaltnPepper’s because it’s like on a WHOLE other level of quality fr, I don’t say this in a self-deprecating way or anything like that btw like I am VERY happy with Kill Switch and I know that lots of people are enjoying it so don’t take this as anything like me shitting on my own fic or something, what I mean is that this particular author is like. OBJECTIVELY skilled in a way that completely blows my mind lmao, like their writing style and storytelling skills are BEYOND impressive TRUST ME ON THIS OKAY- HI PEPPER SORRY FOR RANDOMLY GUSHING ABOUT YOU IN A COMPLETELY UNRELATED FANDOM I just needed anon to know about Beacon for the awesome NPD rep incoming, lol

I’d say the biggest thing about the whole scenario that’s kinda not portrayed well (imo) is like, the whole chapter comes off as pretty “on the nose”, like, the dialogue is a little unnatural at parts and I probably coulda been more subtle and organic with King Candy’s NPD-specific feelings leading up to this blow-up if I were better at, like… writing feelings, I guess??? Idk how to explain it 😂 I do still like how it turned out, I just wish I had the skill to have kinda built it all up a little more naturally. Plus there’s the whole “it usually takes many years of therapy for positive change to occur”, so I think my writing of him is a little bit on the unrealistic side in those ways, but obviously I can’t have the timeline drag on for years lmao, and I also wanted to be very clear about the kind of messaging I was trying to get across by coding him in this way, so I felt that was more important to make all that stuff as transparent as I could rather than prioritize 100% pacing accuracy lol (Like, the absolute LAST thing I want is for people to think I’m saying “He’s done all these bad things so CLEARLY he has NPD because people with NPD are horrible and that’s the only explanation for anybody who does these kind of bad things” LIKE THAT IS NOT WHAT I AM GOING FOR AT ALL, AS I HOPE PEOPLE CAN TELL LMAOOO, but yeah, as I kinda explained in the chapter notes already, some of Turbo’s behaviours and the Roadblasters incident in particular just had me feeling MANY sorts of ways, plus there being the added element of knowing someone irl with NPD and seeing all the bullshit they’ve had to put up with because of it, and I wanted to use all these feelings to write a story about the depression side of NPD, because I just. I couldn’t get it out of my head, dude. It was nagging the HELL out of me. Idk how to really describe it. But I’m so unbelievably happy that it’s paid off in the way of like, making you feel seen!!! 😭 That’s like one of the best outcomes I could have ever hoped for khjgfcfhjgvhkbjknhgvfgcgjhv *DYING SOBBING*)

[skittlewaffle]

I'M GOING TO MOMOCON !!

You heard that right !! AND I will be handing out free Sun and Moon buttons that I made if you find me (or if I spot a wild DCA, hehehe) They will be signed on the back with my Insta handle ,, did u know that this isn't my main tumblr ?? haha yeah ....... it'll be a different name

I will be going as Cassie from FNAF SB Ruin, and I'll have this paper mache Vanny mask with me! (I MADE THAT TOO I'm so happy to have finally stepped up my cosplay game a lil bit!! It's my first paper mache project ever hehe ,,)

I hope to see you there! Also if there are any FNAF related events goin on there that I don't know about then .. you should totally let me know wahaha .. and girl YOU KNOW I will be in line to see Kellen Goff (my voice acting INSPIRATION tbh, all Sun n Moon simping aside)

Love y'all !! I appreciate y'all sticking around despite my inactivity; I will be queueing up some old art posts in the meantime 🥹💖

[ghost-bleus]

the strange case of dr vanessa and ms vanny!

guhh okay okay.okay. this idea came to me and i had to draw it. vanessa and vanny are extremely similar to jekyll and hdye and you HAVE to hear me out on this

jekyll created hyde to see what would happen when he separated the good and the bad in himself. he ended up splitting into these two personalities; jekyll, the kind scientist, and hyde, a scruffy and mean young man

vanny is vanessa's hyde. vanny was created so these vile acts could be taken out, but its not as thought vanessa doesnt have a choice. its in the same way jekyll chooses to drink that potion, despite knowing what hyde does.

vanessa enjoys playing the part of vanny. she enjoys this freedom, and keeps coming back in a similar way jekyll cannot stop himself from longing to turn into hyde. she knows fully well what she is doing is wrong. but she keeps putting on that suit.

anyways you should read the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde thank you for your time

[incorrect-fnaf-quotes]

Not every Recharge Station is functional. Something Gregory begins to discover at the worst times in the night.

Someone—Vanny—has been going around, and purposely messing with a good amount of them as the night continues. At least once she’s aware of who’s helping.

Sometimes, they’re broken enough that nothing happens. Other times, they may be reversed—as in, the station is a trick, and takes more of Glam. Freddy’s battery.

[mushramoo]

colors are obviously fucked but some rough sketches of stickers I might make? Or maybe keychains….

[hearts401]

Where's that post that's like "Daddy issues make you a little awkward and depressed but mommy issues just make you insane." because.

yeah...

yep

definitely

yeah that sounds right (technically a hc but fuck off)

i see it

NEED I GO ON???

[cryptid-catnip]

god there will never be more missed potential in a game to ever exist than security breach

vanny you could have been so cool

[vannyinthestars]

Andreil, argue with the wall:

[scrunchiesandsquips]

anyone that’s ever read and enjoyed giovannis room please interact with this post I’m going feral over this book as always

[send-me-a-puffalope]

Need someone to write a fanfic where Vanessa wakes up in the hospital after the PQ ending in SB with amnesia, completely missing all of her possessed years from her memory. and she sneaks into the RUIN Pizzaplex to figure out what happened to her and finds messages and old security tape and interprets every clue wrong, as she still believes that Vanny is a whole separate being.

And like the ending is Vanessa believing she understood what happened to her (she was transferred from her previous job to the Pizzaplex and was collateral when a costumed murderer terrorized the building) before returning home and discovering the Vanny suit in her home —> leading to her getting her memories back. She goes back to the Pizzaplex one last time and finds Gregory in the back alley and they have a heart to heart from like a few feets distance from each other, neither of them really trusting each other but needing each other to fully fill in the blanks.

[reluctanttrabbit]

VIDEO KILLED THE RADIO STAR!!! ^_^

new-ish vanny design.... shes such a lil pookie to me (she has killed several people)

closeups down below VV

[shiningstarr15]

🚨RANT POST 🚨

You know what I’m just come right out and say it.

This community as a whole doesn’t fucking deserve Vanessa or Gregory.

Here you have two characters, VITAL to the plots of pretty much the entirety of SW era, obvious connections to what is happening and parallels to each other, and yet they are treated like LITERAL SHIT.

The Gregory hate is soo forced at this point. Like how hard is it to comprehend the fact that this CHILD was thrown into a horrific LIFE OR DEATH situation? I’m sorry what tf would you have done if you had 400 lb animatronics trying to rip you apart? And as far as this ‘lack of empathy’ bc he ‘didn’t care about Freddy’s feelings and therefore doesn’t care about Freddy..’ SHUT. THE. FUCK. UP. He literally risked his fucking life to save him getting all those parts, just bc he doesn’t show emotions the way you THINK he should doesn’t make him a fucking psychopath! He’s a CHILD!!! And if I may be so bold, saying a character is inherently bad bc of the way they behave reeks of ableism (yes I am an autistic Gregory truther but that’s besides the point). He had EVERY RIGHT to defend himself and guess what? He wouldn’t have rescued a mind controlled woman he barely knew and was honestly quite fucking rude to him if he LACKED EMPATHY. FUCK OFF WITH THAT SHIT.

And as for Vanessa, what do you even want me to say? She’s one of if not THE most underutilized character in the fucking franchise. And yet she’s treated so terribly. The misogyny is literally DRIPPING from so many people that only see her as the ‘sexy security guard’ UGHH YES she is attractive I will give her that, but she is SO MUCH MORE than that. I’m almost confident that the people that wanna write her off don’t know her story. Did you pay attention to help wanted? Did you read the AR emails? Did you even play the therapy tapes?? HER STORY IS THERE. Yes it’s butchered to shit but it’s still enough that you can draw conclusions and not write her off as a one off one dimensional angry bitch.

I understand that people have different tastes, and you are absolutely allowed to like and dislike what you want. But my god, the complete disrespect for these two it just.. it BOTHERS ME.

These two deserve so much more than what they’re given. Even the franchise itself I don’t think is giving them the respect they deserve. Making Gregory look like an antagonist as ‘good vs bad’ between him and Cassie, and then just blatantly ignoring Vanessa into obscurity even though it’s clear Scott wants to do more with the character. For crying out loud, SHES IN THE MOVIE! And yes it did help to put her on the map to some degree but she’s still not getting the right respect.

I don’t mean to be negative, I’m not a negative person, I just.. needed to get these thoughts about bc they’ve been bubbling for so long.

Also please note I am NOT talking about the 3 star fam fandom in this post, you guys are MORE than respectful to these characters. I may not fully agree with every interpretation but I can appreciate the love that’s still being poured out to them. So you guys more than do deserve them :3

Ok rant over, back to working on my WIPs ✌️

[biblically-accurate-dca]

sb humanizations + various vannys :3